The battle resumes

Dear Greatest Family and Friends Ever,
 
Hello and Happy New Year! 
 
I'm not going to try and go over the events that Johnsy has captured below and over recent months, mainly because he has done it so well. 
 
Anyhow, it's been a roller coaster since mid November, that's for sure.  I did not expect to be sitting here writing this and to be honest I still sometimes wonder if this is actually happening to us!  Most of the time I'm absolutely fine but there is the odd occasion that the brain start to whir (rare) with questions such as how long is the treatment going to last, what does it entail, when can I return to normal life, am I going to lose my hair etc.  The hair one is weird, I've always thought of others that if I was in their shoes that I wouldn't care about the hair, but I do - me with a bald head is a scary prospect!  Another question that pops it's ugly head is what is the ultimate goal of the treatment and also the main one, when am I going to find my puppy?!
 
It is super frustrating not being able to bosh this crap and move on.  I've come to understand recently that it's going to take longer than that and the best thing I can do to get this over as quick as possible is to rest as much as possible and chill.  Easier said than done.  The afternoon naps whilst nice on a weekend are a bore in the week and it's a pain not to be able to do any sport or go to the gym either.  It's also been suggested that I give up wine........I mean......are you joking?!  Even if I live a shorter life, I'm having wine.
 
As you know, we have an appointment with Professor Dalgleish on Wednesday this week and he is apparently the don of this type of cancer.  This is our first oncology appointment and he hopefully will provide some of the answers to the questions above.  He will give us an initial plan on how to tackle the cancer they have found in the liver. They have also found some indeterminate shadows in the lungs which he will give clarity on too.
 
The two of us and our family have had such a happy and spoiling Christmas and New Year and it's been a welcome break from dealing with the harsh reality.  I've used it to get some sleep (in between bread and cheese) and gather some strength.  So it's time to put the gloves back on and with the Eye of the Tiger theme tune in the background, face the music again.  We can do it!
 
I know Johnsy has said this already but I cannot echo his words enough (on this occasion!) - THANK YOU with everything I have for all the love and support that you have given us.  It means the absolute world and makes such a difference and makes us able to be strong. 

Strong we will be I promise and beat this sh1t and I'm already looking forward to the celebration at the end.
 
That is it I think, keep everything crossed for Wednesday and either me or my unbelievable husband will update with news after that.
 
So much Love,
 
Sammy x x x